OMG OMG. I watched serendipity yesterday ( sorry Val i just kop ur dvds to watch heh, i don't know why I'm so into all the lovey dovey romantic shows now. Im finishing your whole rack of dvds on the shelf already)
And of course its a brilliant show because although the plot is impossible, its delightfully sweet and gives a sudden surge of pleasurable hope to someone like me who still stupidly or you might say foolishly believe in destiny and fate. John Crusack is cute and Kate Beckinsale is dazzling. Which adds even more to the surreality of this show that is set under the shimmering nightlights of NYC...
But anyway what i really wanted to say was... There was this particular scene where he flew to San Francisco to find her but he mistook another person for her from his obscured vision behind the bushes. And this was titled " EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON" #)@#&%&!)~!!!!
Yeekeow, can you tell me if this is a case of the egg before the chicken or the chicken before the egg? Super freaky & traumatizing.
♥ bachelor season ended
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
3:52 PM
ohgosh the bachelor season ended and Andy picked tessa! My choice!! shes amazingly sincere, beautiful and sophisticated. Right from the beginning, I felt that she was somewhat different from the other girls but i couldn quite pinpoint it. But there again she proved it, by sticking around till the end. Actually i realised from this show that when there is love between two people, it cant escape other peoples' eyes; neither can it escape the camera lens. I mean it was so easy (for me) to tell that Bevin was perhaps not so in love with Andy and she was just sticking around maybe cos she hasnt had been rejected. Just from the way she looked at him/ the way he looked at him.
Not surprisingly the end he chose Tessa. And im really glad he did. Cos i think shes perfect!=)
Just hanging around in the Angell Hall waiting for evening time to hang out with my fellow SEA people. There's only a couple of them around in AA and before they all graduate or something we'd better hang out more! Its really interesting hanging out with them, cos I dont really have to feel guarded about my background (sometimes i really do) and they relly appreciate me/us/each other for exactly who we are. Its amazing that going overseas you start to meet people from all over the world and get to learn so much from each other.
I tried to retrieve my photos online just now but apparently most of them are gone. I'm thinking last year, exactly at this time, I was in Zimbabwe, with 8 other wonderful girls, on a journey to weave a tapestry of hope and love. Time has really flown by so quickly. But at the same time, Im thinking hey, its been one long year. What have i actually done for them since we left? How are they getting along? Is the economy still going downhill and how are the internal rifes right now? How is harare children's Home and charmaine getting along?
Im reflecting on myself and startng to realise that I am actually not so much of a do-er (despite many people tellign me that). I feel insecure sometimes initiating some thing new. Most of the time i would rather take the tested trusted path, than the novel less trodden path. I guess its not only the way I do my stuff, carry out my duties, learn my work, choose my brands and select my foods. Its also how I deal with friendships and relationships. I don't ever want to get hurt again, and I hate to have to admit that i have a commitment fear. its like an avoidant personality - i fear getting too overly close to any human being. Many times i just wanna walk out of this but I guess I have been so drawn into it that its hard to pull out.
No idea why this is getting so emotional. Perhaps its just 'cos i ve been hanging around for 3 hours with a splitting headache and nothing to do thats why I'm thinking so much. Or maybe i would attribute this to the dramatic, albeit sweet finale of the bachelor. Or maybe its 'cos Im thinking that I am an emotionally deprived, stoic person.Perhaps its the pep talk/mini lecture my silly mum was giving me yesterday night. Or possibly because I'm thinking about how incompetent as a person I have been in my life so far with regards to so many aspects.
Gosh, as what amy said, i really need to find within internally the strive for excellence.
----------------------------------------------------------------------------- Evidence that the colorifics test IS accurate cos i just did it again.
You have always longed for tenderness, love and a sensitivity of feeling into which you would like to blend. You are a very gentle warm person and responsive to 'All things bright and beautiful'. This personifies a caring person, a person who 'needs' and indeed 'needs to be needed'.
You are a leader in every sense of the word. You know where you are going and you know what you need to do in order to get there. You exercise an inherent initiative in overcoming obstacles and difficulties. You either hold, or wish to achieve, a position of authority by means of which full control can be exerted over events.
There are times of everyone's life when 'compromise' is the name of the game and this is the time, so you have no alternative but to forgo some pleasures for the time being. You are capable of achieving satisfaction through physical activity.
You are feeling full of uncertainty and worrying over what you consider as missed opportunities. This is causing considerable stress and tension. You feel that there must be more to life than the constant pressures and anxieties - that surely life must hold far more opportunities than that which it has to date presented to you. You sincerely believe that there must be a simpler way to tap life's hidden recourses and should you be able to find that way - you could achieve your hearts desire. It's the not knowing 'how' that is affording you the constant worry. You are constantly probing and seeking - trying to ensure that at all times you are on your guard against missing any opportunity. 'Enough is enough'. You are anxious to avoid further setbacks. You are strenuously trying to make sure that you will not be overlooked and you badly need security.
You have so many ideas that you would like to revitalise but you need to realise a stable and peaceful condition to do so. Once you can free yourself from all the aggravation and tension around you, you will make strides that may amaze you. You will not be prevented from achieving all the things you so desire.
♥ she crappy song
Saturday, May 19, 2007
12:06 PM
gosh i just discovered this rojak song from SHE new album. Jay Chou wrote this song using all his song titles. CRAZZY. its not nice at all, and SHE were singing the song in his style.
anyway im gonna send my laptop for repairs cos lousy hp laptop has a crack on the LCD screen!=( its like a big fat ugly blue blob on the top righthand corner. So I wont be blogging/msn-ing/facebooking/listenign to live radio for at least a week.
Perhaps its a SIGN to focus on my work lar.I just realised school will be over in 4 week! woohoO!
♥ updates
Friday, May 18, 2007
12:31 AM
Okay i just realised that sweet escape has another remix version to it! hahaha
Nothing much has been happening recently. Just that i keep seeing the same people around on campus, perhaps because there are jus so few people doing spring. I ve been running to lab at really weird times to catch the virgin flies so that i can do crosses on them, and cos AATA bus 2 comes like every one hour after 7 pm, its really a test of my patience.
Been learning quite a bit during lab research. One can really never be detailed enough when it comes down to the simplest thing like how much food to put and literally, how to make the flies happy. Hui, my mentor is really smart. I mean, really damn smart. If only I could have half of her intelligence?=S
Temperamental michigan is pulling her weather tricks on us again. I was shivering today while waiting for bus 2 cos i happily wear a T-shirt on a 12 degree day.
Thought of the day: Should i do UROP, honors lab research, 3rd yr jap,2 bio classes, psych 270, (in addition to SEA and SSA) and kill myself coming fall semester?
♥
Friday, May 11, 2007
2:43 PM
Spring term has been really sweet so far! with the weather warming up, the sun coming out, nice friends in classes, delicious dinners to look forward to almost everyday...
It somehow feels that the days are a lot longer. Maybe because i start earlier at 8.30 or 9 each day and end earlier. Or maybe the sun sets later. Or perhaps its just because theres no SSA or SEA stuff or dance to do.
So everyday, in between some of my breaks, i would lie on the grass at the diag and suntan a lil. Wait for the bell tower to start the chimes at 12 noon sharp. Admire the newly planted tulips along the walkways and watch some random people perform on the Diag.
Too bad my camera drowned (long story here) and i dont have my camera to go around snapping photos anymore.
Anyway I started doing research at the Cadigan Lab in the Natural Sciences Building. And i am working on genetics in Drosophila Melanogaster, the fruit fly. My main job is to test how proteins in the casein kinase family regulates the process of cell death. In short I cross flies and see how their eyes are expressed. And woohoo, in later stages i may be able to do cloning and cell culture!
My mentor has been really nice so far. She patiently sits me through all the tough information and brings me around the lab to learn. Ohoh, i spent almost an hour separating the male flies from the females under the microscope so that there is no promiscuity.tsk.
Off to watch a nice movie!=)
♥
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
9:48 PM
The Sweet Escape by Gwen Stefani
If I could escape I would, but first of all let me say I must apologize for acting, stinking, treating you this way Cause I've been acting like sour milk fell on the floor It's your fault you didn't shut the refridgerator Maybe that's the reason I've been acting so cold
If I could escape And re-create a place as my own world And I could be your favorite girl Forever, perfectly together Tell me boy, now wouldn't that be sweet?
If I could be sweet I know I've been a real bad girl I didn't mean for you to get hurt Forever, we can make it better Tell me boy, Now wouldn't that be sweet? Sweet escape
(I wanna get away, to our sweet escape)
You let me down I'm at my lowest boiling point Come help me out I need to get me out of this joint Come on, let's bounce Counting on you to turn me around Instead of clowning around let's look for some common ground
So baby, times getting a little crazy I've been getting a little lazy Waiting for you to come save me I can see that you're angry
By the way the you treat me Hopefully you don't leave me Want to take you with me
If I could escape And re-create a place as my own world And I could be your favorite girl Forever, perfectly together Tell me boy, now wouldn't that be sweet?
If I could be sweet I know I've been a real bad girl I didn't mean for you to get hurt Forever, we can make it better Tell me boy, now wouldn't that be sweet? Sweet escape
Cause I've been acting like sour milk fell on the floor It's your fault you didn't shut the refridgerator Maybe that's the reason I've been acting so cold
If I could escape And re-create a place in my own world And I could be your favorite girl Forever, perfectly together Tell me boy, now wouldn't that be sweet?
If I could be sweet I know I've been a real bad girl I didn't mean for you to get hurt Forever, we can make it better Tell me boy, now wouldn't that be sweet? Sweet escape
Nicenice song=)heres the mtv. so classic Gwen Stefani.
